oh my god my host dad just said the most annoying thing I’ve heard all day.
So I just performed in front of James Franco
To clarify, I performed a play we’d worked on for a day from 9 this morning to 8 at night, and he was in the audience, and apparently he liked it.
So, last Saturday, I was informed that I need to switch hostfamilies, and that I will stay with my grandma for a while.
This of course made me really, really upset. I cried a whole lot and so far as I know, there is no way to fix the situation or for me to stay here. I have because of this chosen to be as mature about it as possible and act as if it’s alright.
However, today I was informed that I’ll probably move during this weekend at the latest, and honestly I just want to cry. I’ve really bonded with the whole family during my stay, and leaving like this upsets me a great deal. I know that it’s out of my control, but it still makes me really sad. They told me it’s not because of me but because they have a lot of things going on, and I believe that. I just wish that wasn’t the case.
I’ve been having these recurring cases of small depression-like feelings for almost two months now… They can come out of nowhere, and it makes me feel really tired and hopeless. I don’t know what it’s due to, but it doesn’t feel like homesickness or anything like that. Thoughts?
So first she goes to the UK to study at a Swedish school that costs 100,000KR to study at…. THEN she comes home for the weekend, even though England is only 4h away from Sweden by airplane, something that costs at least freaking 4-8000KR to do…. All the while she was freaking boasting about it before she went……
What the actual fuck.. you know what, fuck you. I don’t know why I care so much, but I really, really hate you, because you honestly have no idea how privileged you are. You really don’t. For fucks sake, woman. “Come home over the weekend” my ass you fucking muppet.
Seriously though, I’m feeling really down and I can’t concentrate on doing my homework… I have a test on Elizabethan times on Friday, which I haven’t studied for, and I have to turn in my star chart tomorrow, which I haven’t finished…
I miss my family and friends, and I miss my old teachers. If I had Dorothy’s boots, I’d clack them thrice and go home for a bit, but I don’t. I feel a bit hopeless.
I WAS RIGHT
OLIVIA I WAS SOOOO RIGHT I FORETOLD THIS 6 HOURS AGO
I’M FUCKING MADAME CLEO
my host sister is being really negative. I hate it when people act like that for no reason. It makes me want to tell them off, but I can’t do that without creating a huge conflict, and I’d rather not. So I just sit here and act like I’m not noticing anything.
We start filming on Wednesday!!
AAHH I’M SO EXCITED
I’M PLAYING A PRINCE
I GET TO WEAR A CROWN AND RECITE POETRY
CURSE YOU, VANITY. YOU HAVE FORSAKEN ME TO A LIFE OF PAIN AND NAIL POLISH FUMES.